four thousand less

So our fund raising thermometer has taken a dip down.

$4,000 down

Apparently we did not receive an anonymous donation in July like our agency told us which means we have $4000 less for travel. This is HUGE - of course not too big for God, but the stress and worry isn't what any of us needs right now. School just started, my 17 year old is now driving, my grandmother passed away last week, our baby boy is STILL in an orphanage 9,000 miles away, and we now need MORE money when I thought we were fully funded! I know one day I will look back on this and realize it is just money, but right now I want to cry - as I have been for days now. In the past year-and-a-half I have PRAYED for God's provision, asked for donations, had a huge garage sale, sold dozens of items on Ebay and Facebook, did an enormous amount of fundraising with my photography business - working two jobs I might add, applied for 7 grants (received two) and two loans (received one). I am still saving for maternity leave while I'm out for at least three months, assuming the bonding and attachment go smoothly.

God sure didn't say following him would be easy but he did say he would provide so I'm clinging to that and praying for Him to show me some creative ways to generate {{more}} funds without adding to my grey hair collection which is quite out of control these days.